I can't explain ...

There is really so much in my life that I should be thankful for. Yet, there is so much that bothers me in my heart. The only reason I say this is because of the fact is I care for someone so much yet it goes unnoticed I never wanted to end this way.  I loved him so much and yet he never truly understood just how much. Another feeling in my heart was the fact that I thought I had someone from my past love me. Yet, he ignores and forgets about me I know that it's the past,but I thought there was someone who really loved for who I am. I can't explain how alone I feel in this world I have my family and my close friends yet I still there is something missing. My heart was aching knowing that there was nothing that I could do to end this drama. There is a hole in my heart knowin that there is something missing. I long for a love that not just anyone can fill. I feel it must be someone who can understand me in everyway. Mind, heart, and most of all my soul these things are the most difficult to cover not just anyone can fill these things. I wish that everything I ever wanted would happen in my life. Yet, I must play the waiting game which is the most annoying game to ever play. I have learned to live with it in my life but really all I want to do is cry since I see no happiness coming from my own life. I watch as others find some one to love and care about and yet I sit in the background and suffer with nothing to show. I just show how much my heart aches through writing but I feel no one can really hear me when I cry. I scream out in my writing for someone to understand just how I feel that is all I can ever do. Well this is the end this is how I will end it.....

Reconciled From the past

To my surprise I had a someone who had apoloize to me after almost 6 years that have pass for my making my life a living hell to endure. I would sometimes cry and dread going to school because he was there to make my experience worst then it could ever be by anyone. To think that someone could have have a joy in seeing someone cry in pain. This pain wasn't a physical pain but a very harmful emotional pain that I had to come to terms with. To be honest all I could remember was the emotional pain I couldn't remember what he would say about me. All I can remember were the tears that I would always cry when he would torture me. I remember when I began highschool all I could care about was actually being free from everything that one guy would do to me. Yet i faced the same fate the first year that I was in high school. That was when I would wear all black and not want to talk with anyone since I was so timid and afraid. I was tortured and even made fun of when I first started in highschool. I found it so hard to make friends in school and even a harder time to figure out who I really was. I  never thought that I could do anything that I accomplished in highschool. All my dreams have yet to be done and that one guy and I have now come to terms of the past and it is forgotten. So I am thankful to know that he was sorry and now I know that I can be who I truly feel I want to be now that it's all over....

To cherish every moment is something you should never take for granted. Live the moments you have been given Every momentyou live can not always be granted since you never know. Some moments are considered to be a surprise and you never want them to end. Love and life can go hand and hand when you want to cherish every moment. Moments are sweet and beautiful. Never taking moments for granted was the key to living life. Live every moment the best way possible. There is only so much you can do to keep love in life. Love and life are always beautiful things. I never really thought it possible for me to cherish the moments I found so dear. I have always said I will never take my life ad the moments I live for granted. Someone once said to love as hard as you can and always try to achieve what your heart desires the most. In the end it was worth all the struggle to achieve because of how bless and lucky you feel after you have in your life.

Life and advice to live it

Life has been one those things that we can never really escape and yet, the fact we try shows that we do care about something. But it's not really something to proud of since you basically ignore the problems that occur to you in everyday life. Life is never an easy task to handel trust me i struggle with it all the time. I can't run away from it since life is always going to  be there in front of my face. But I can give a bit of advice live your life to the fullest and face it head on since it can end the problems once and for all. Life is will always be a struggle to us at same point in our lives. The fact that we try to live life is the only thing that anyone can ever ask us to do. It's important to remember that you will always have family and friends they are the circle of support you will have to get through hard times. I always tend to forget another person that is there even though I can't see him he is there. His name is God and yes I know it's a very random thing to mention,but it does hold some truth to it. When we go through life we always forget that our lives are a gift. If it weren't for God then we would have never lived to begin with. I know religion is something that most people don't use because some people have hard time believeing that God exist but this is my faith. If I didn't have God who else could I rely on ? I know my family and friends maybe my circle of support but they are still not enough to heal me and help me through my difficult life. Even though I may not see God I do know that he exist in my life and always will. Faith is another key to get through life even though most people don't use it I believe that it can help even the most broken spirit or even life as we call it. Life is technically something we learn from to gain wisdom and pass that wisdom down to our next generation so that way the same mistake won't be made. I have also learned that life is a bunch of lessons to be learned. We may never be perfect but the fact is life is about making mistakes and learning what we can out of them. I know that when I pass on my wisdom I want to make sure that the next generation understands that it shouldn't be done the wrong but the right way. Life will always ave ups and downs but I know that I live it since I only have one life to live in this world. Take that to mind when you think that life really sucks becuase you may not realize it but we all have just ONE life to live make the best of it and try to be all that you can be....